So BLT flew up here two weeks ago. Her first appointment was 1/11/09 and everyday for the next five days she was at our infertility clinic being violated by Dr. B, Nurse C and not to forget our therapist Dr. MCJ. BLT was in and out of appointments and she was such a good sport about it. Thanks again sis. :)
Going through this process IVF with using an egg donor is like going on a blind date. You have NO IDEA if it will work out. ha! First someone had to donate their eggs. (check) Then we had to get that person here for numerous doctor's appointments. (check) Bloodwork done at certian times. (check.) Not to forget that our donor had to be a good match. Meaning have healthy eggs. (check. check. check.) Let me just say BLT will have NO PROBLEM at all when she wants to conceive. hahahaha. She is a walking baby maker. hahahahahaha. Thank the LORD! Just so you know if non of this lined up then we would not be moving forward. I don't want to be a crazy religious person, but I have to say I do thank God everyday for the blessings we receive. I truly feel without God we would not be on this beautiful path to parenthood. Through our faith we have found strength to not break down or give up in this process. Financially we are stressed. Emotionally we are stressed. Physically I am stressed. The only way this is even somewhat enjoyable is by the GRACE of GOD.
With all the appointments, stress and just being completely overwhelmed our week togeather was actually a wonderful week. My DH and I really enjoyed spending time with our lil' sis. She really has blossmed into a beautiful young woman. She is so smart, talanted, funny and intriguing. Just thinking about what our baby will be like gives me butterflies in my stomach. (I mean that in an great way.) Being that our week of appointments went well we are now just couting the days until BLT returns for egg retrieval and embryo transfer. We are not 100% on the exact dates, but our Donor Nurse thinks we will do the egg retrieval on 3/24 and the embryo transfer on 3/27 or 3/29. Either way if it all works out I should be pregant by the end of March! OMG I feel like I'm dreaming. :)
So many people tell me not to get my hopes up. They tell me that it might not work. Well I don't care. I know it might not work, but IT MIGHT WORK and that is what I choose to believe. Why should I think negatively? POSITIVE. POSITIVE. POSITIVE. That is the only way I choose to live. Whatever happens God will give us all strength to survive through it. I am more scared of it working too well then it not working. hahaha. Or should I say my DH is scared. hahahaha.
Well I will keep you all updated dear family and friends as we take this wild ride. Please pray for us. We love you all.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
So it begins...
I have known since I was 19 that there would be challenges for me to conceive a child. It was a hard reality to face being a young woman still in high school, but with the love and support of my mom and sister along with close friends I got through those dark moments.
When I met my DH I was very upfront about my infertility. If I remember correctly I told him there was a chance I would not be able to have children, and if that would be an issue for him this was his opportunity to walk away with no hurt feelings. Amazingly he didn't walk away. He has always from that very day been encouraging and supportive towards me and my fear of not being able to start a family.
So here we are almost 10 years of being with each other (8 of those years we have been married) and we are starting our adventure to expand our family. We considered adoption and that is still a dream that we will have one day, but we really wanted to try and have our "own" baby first. Call me selfish, but I wanted to experience pregnancy, breast feeding and every moment of creating a child. I just wanted to try to conceive and then later on down the road I would love to adopt.
Our first appointment with our infertility doctor was 11/20/09. We were so nervous. DH and I both could not sleep the night before. We were so EXCITED! We both knew what would happen. We knew from past doctors visits that my ovaries were small and the chance of me using my own eggs were slim to none, but of course we had our hopes of being able to use my eggs. So when our doctor (let me just call him Dr. B for BABY) told us we would need an egg donor it did not shock us as much as you would think. Yes, I cried a lot. However I knew that I had so many wonderful women in my life that offered to be our egg donor. That reminds me to thank J. Wacky Hall, H. Chea-Chong, B. Mann, My Soul Sister, M. Taylor and my cousin E for always offering up their eggs for donation. We love y'all and will always remember your generous offer. Luckily we did not have to take our friends up on their offer to help us because we had our very own BLT, our lil' sis, who was willing to step up to help us make our baby. :) Tears...always tears when I think of how my lil' sis has given us such an amazing gift. She will never know how much this means to my DH and I. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you BLT for everything. We love you.
When I met my DH I was very upfront about my infertility. If I remember correctly I told him there was a chance I would not be able to have children, and if that would be an issue for him this was his opportunity to walk away with no hurt feelings. Amazingly he didn't walk away. He has always from that very day been encouraging and supportive towards me and my fear of not being able to start a family.
So here we are almost 10 years of being with each other (8 of those years we have been married) and we are starting our adventure to expand our family. We considered adoption and that is still a dream that we will have one day, but we really wanted to try and have our "own" baby first. Call me selfish, but I wanted to experience pregnancy, breast feeding and every moment of creating a child. I just wanted to try to conceive and then later on down the road I would love to adopt.
Our first appointment with our infertility doctor was 11/20/09. We were so nervous. DH and I both could not sleep the night before. We were so EXCITED! We both knew what would happen. We knew from past doctors visits that my ovaries were small and the chance of me using my own eggs were slim to none, but of course we had our hopes of being able to use my eggs. So when our doctor (let me just call him Dr. B for BABY) told us we would need an egg donor it did not shock us as much as you would think. Yes, I cried a lot. However I knew that I had so many wonderful women in my life that offered to be our egg donor. That reminds me to thank J. Wacky Hall, H. Chea-Chong, B. Mann, My Soul Sister, M. Taylor and my cousin E for always offering up their eggs for donation. We love y'all and will always remember your generous offer. Luckily we did not have to take our friends up on their offer to help us because we had our very own BLT, our lil' sis, who was willing to step up to help us make our baby. :) Tears...always tears when I think of how my lil' sis has given us such an amazing gift. She will never know how much this means to my DH and I. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you BLT for everything. We love you.
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